Saturday, August 22, 2009

At mom's

Hello from Petropolis. Lucas and I made a good bus trip, although I had a huge migraine crisis while on the road. Nothing new, it was obviously pre-menstrual and post-stress... But as soon as I got home I took my medicine, went to bed, and in three hours I was myself again.
It's a relieve to be here, surrounded by my family's love. Lucas is amazingly dealing well with it all, only wanting details about our new life and his new school-to-be - and I give him the answers he deserves, I need to be fair with him. Of course he's still sad, missing his father, but it must be simpler now in his mind,m once we're already in a different place, because he hasn't mentioned his name so far. He talked to him by phone, and didn't, apparently, get worse after the talk. This really make me feel better... More and more I see I took the right decision, and there is no return to the life I had. It really seems like another life, in another time & space, as if it was another person instead of me. Does it make any sense?  
Now I'm all focused in starting to take a new direction in my life, spreading ads as an private English teacher, making new handcrafts for the local craft stores and my Etsy shop (mom got new colored felts, so I have ideas for Halloween), and I even want to start dog-walking here. Anything to get money and raise my little witch as I must, find a little house for us.. It's a matter of time...
One good practical thing is that here I canbe online more often, osmething so hard the last months, you know. Connected to the world again.
So far, we had long walks around, enjoying the beautiful surroundings, but the weather here is chiiiiiiili! Holly, the cold weather is haunting me! :o)
I wish everybody a great weekend, thanks everybody for the amazing support.

12 comentários:

Dragonstar said...

I'm so glad you're safe with your mother, though the journey must have been a nightmare with that awful migraine! All the very best to you and Lucas in your new life. ((Huge hugs))

Anonymous said...

Glad you arrived safely at your mom's. You absolutely ARE doing the right thing for yourself and Lucas, never doubt that. Trust your instincts. Already I think you are seeing that your instincts were correct. I am so glad you are now surrounded by people who love you and want the best for you.

Sending you many, many hugs & kisses. I hope the adjustment continues to go smoothly for you and for Lucas. No matter what challenges come up, know that you are a strong woman and are able to handle it. And your family is there to help you, and your friends here online as well! I will offer all the support I can from afar!

Janet said...

I'm happy to hear you and Lucas are settled in at your mom's house. I'm sure she's thrilled to have you both with her and is happy to be able to spoil Lucas a little bit.

It sounds as if you're already thinking ahead and making good plans for your future. It's good to know you're with people who love you and away from the stressful life you had before.

Anonymous said...

They have said it all, Nydia but I can second it. Blessed be.

Olde Dame Penniwig said...

NYDIA! Halloo! Glad you are at your mom's house and "back home" where you are loved and appreciated.

Children take their cues from parents, just be matter of fact and he will take a lot of courage from it...starting a new school is tough, but he is such a charmer he will soon be happy and have new friends.

Yes, get back working, tutoring English would be wonderful...don't take too many hours of a job, though, ease back into have had a shock and need some time to relax, not just jump right into full-time work again.

You already sound perkier!!! That shows you made the right decision absolutely.

I hope there are furnaces in the city? And that you can warm up...yes, I do worry!!!

Poopsie aka Blue said...

Glad to know you & Lucas made the journey safely and are surrounded with love.


Michele said...

Nydia, my sweet sweet friend. I have arrived back to the blogging world after some tense days of illness not only for myself but for my husband as well so it is only today I read your distressed words and I sit here with tears in my eyes and love for you and Lucas in my heart.

How I want to wrap my arms around you and hug you and tell you everything will be ok but I thank Gods that you are surrounded by family that will do the same.

I see you have given it all that you have, and worked your special inner magic to make this work and it has not. But only because it definitely takes two willing partners to ignite the fire... you cannot take on the load by yourself. It will only bring on health issues and then you will be in no good shape to poor Lucas, he needs you more than ever.

I have often wished that someone would have taken me from the horrible situation I had when I was Lucas' age and I not had witnessed the things I have seen and heard.

Continue to be strong my friend, continue to go in the direction you are going, it is the right way... I know your heart breaks and you are tired but remember that sweet Lucas in the end here, and what a remarkable mom you are!

Hugs and kisses, Nydia, and please give one of each to my little buddy... ♥♥


Tori said...

I'm glad you're there, safe and happy. Best of luck to you and Lucas!

Lots of love. <3

Anonymous said...

Nydia, my newest blogger witchy friend, it sounds like you are definitely taking postive steps in your life. I am so glad you and Lucas arrived at your mom's house safely. As sad as it is to leave your old life behind, it is time for new beginnings as your inner self and the Gods have guided you.

I agree with Olde Dame Penniwig as she said, "children take cues from their parents". This is so true and I see it at my work everyday. Just remember, if you would have stayed in a relationship where you were treated badly, Lucas would most likely grow up seeing that and would think as a man it would be ok for him to treat a woman that way...not good. You absolutely did the best thing because kids DO take cues from their parents, whether a good example or bad example.

Glad to hear you will be online more. We are here for you!

Blessings and kisses,

CelticBuffy said...

Be strong and take of your yourself in order to take good care of your son. My heart goes out to you, been down a similar road myself. You are amazing!!!! Sending good vibes and blessings your way!

Anonymous said...

I admire your strength and fortitude Nydia.
Sending you hugs and blessings for this new beginning for you & Lucas.

Anonymous said...

Hey sweetie, I'm back to say-- you have an award over at my blog! I know stuff like this is probably the last thing on your mind right now, but being that I know you can turn any place you live into domestic witchy bliss, I thought I would pass along the Domestic Witch award along to you.