Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Putting things in the right perspective



Those who know me here, know that I'm an optmistic witch. Almost a Pollyana. I tend to see the light even in the darkest tunnel (much for the despair of some, lol), and I seldom let grey thoughts to invade my mind. But sometimes I doubt myself. I don't feel like I will be able to change my life in the direction I want. I don't think I'll ever move from where I am now. I doubt my ability to create my own path, I doubt my capacity of renewing myself. Sometimes a black veil covers my eyes. Oh well, I'm human. But I fight this feeling hard and don't let it get the best of me. I light a candle, I invoke the Goddess, I call the God, I ask for strenght. I breath. I stop and look at my little witch, that smile always on his face, the faith he has on me... he trusts me, he thinks I'm wise and strong and I can do anything. Seems like since he was born he feels this way about his mom. So I take a deep breath, take off the veil from my face, and I can live another day as it must. I feel okay again. ;)

10 comentários:

Linda in New Mexico said...

Nydia: It is interesting what a lovely blessing the trust of a child is. It does enable us to be more than we think possible. To face things that we cannot imagine facing alone. Children help define not only who they will be but who we are to them. You are a wonderful person, friend and Mother of this I am sure. Blessings, The Olde Bagg, Linda

Faerie Sage said...

That is Strength

Blessings

Tournesol said...

I remember feeling like that about my mom, very comforting for a child, and now I watch my children and know they feel like that about me too, very inspiring, alot to live up to all that trust from them : )

Rue said...

You have given Lucas every reason to believe in you. It's great that he can remind you from time to time what a great person you are, when you forget!

Breathing deep with you. Hugs!

Lilac Wolf (Angie or Angela) said...

And that is why you are inspiring to me.

petoskystone said...

your innate optimism shines through in your photographs--surrounding you in a warm glow. beautiful slide show :)

Astrid said...

When I first left my marriage, I used the same logic to get me through. "I can do it. I'm the MOM." became my mantra and still is in tough times. Our children bring out the very best in ourselves. I will be lighting a candle for you tonight during my devotional.

Kallan said...

If a powerful witch like Lucas believes in you, how can you NOT believe in yourself? ;)

Love you, Nydia!!

PS. We ALL go through that experience at times.. as it passes, remind yourself of the above ;)

One Witches Blog said...

I agree with what all these other fine and wonderful posters have said.... I doubt myself sometimes too- the position I've been put into to lead a group, the way the adress my as their high priestess, and even more importantly, the way my daughter looks at me and talks about the goddess. Then I remember that even though I doubt myself sometimes, the goddess has faith in me, otherwise I would not be where I am. A very wise woman told me recently "Being nervous is healthy. The day you start saying "Yeah, I'm the High Prietess" is the day you probably should re-examine what you are doing. It's in knowing our struggles and weaknessess that we remember strengths & gifts we utilize and it keeps us in check." Amazing advice. =)

Keep up the good work! You are a talented and lovely witch, and so is your son. =)

Blessings!
Emma

One Witches Blog
http://onewitchesblog.blogspot.com

Sherry )O( AutumnTurtle said...

It is wonderful how a child shows up pure untainted love. Even now, mine are almost 21 and 19 and my oldest still looks at me like I can do anything, be anything he has the mind of a younger teen and I love this he is my awakening eyes. Your feelings are so normal love, God and Goddess are guiding both of you on your paths and like the Goddess and God your little witch will always hold you in his loving arms!